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Paul (islander)


November 7, 2010


Staten Island, New York 10305


April 17, 1961


Cancer Fighter

Cancer Info


Tonsil Cancer


Oropharynx cancer, SCC, Head and Neck Cancer


October 19, 2009


Stage 4


03


Yes


Lymph Node Removal


Radiation Therapy


Taxol (Paclitaxel), Fluorouracil (5-FU), Cisplatin (Platinol, Platinol-AQ)


Everything


Chemo was like Hell


Just listen


none


It helped kill some cancer, but nearly killed me.


Tonsil, base of tongue, valleculla, 4 lymph nodes, neck muscle.


More time


Mt. Sinai Hospital Manhattan, NY


Too many to list and still learning.


Research your illness. See about future financial and medical needs.


October 20, 2011


February 25, 2012



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Paul's Cancer Blog

The Good, The Bad and The Ugly!

Continuing with my follow-up visits on the latest cancer findings. On Monday I had a PET/CT scan. I asked to keep my arms down instead of over my head, due to shoulder pain, and was allowed. The scan was like the five others I took, but this time the doctor came out, which never happened before, after I thought we finished, and proceeded to ask a few questions regarding my mouth, possibly due to the biopsy the ENT took of my tongue, and the positive FNA.. Then put a head and neck brace on me, placed gauze in my mouth and proceeded to take additional scans of my neck. Afterwards, I received a disk copy of the scan, and all the others I took there previously.

On Tuesday I spoke on the telephone with my Radiation Oncologist. She is not interested in doing reirridation since it is dangerous, and rarely done twice, which I already knew, but in December I was going to have it again at this same location, and even had the mask made with simulation scans, but two days before I was to begin the doctor called, and said they were not doing it since it was too risky? Anyway, the RO said she will look at my scans, but after someone tells me no once, I don’t think I would have confidence in them if they want to proceed in the future?

Today I met with my ENT and reviewed all the reports. The cancerous left nodule showed up on the PET, as did a small hot spot on the right lateral tongue and a very small right neck node in level II, which he believes both are from the tongue biopsy done last week, which can happen, he said, but wants to have another FNA done on Friday, although, the tongue biopsy came back negative :), which is good! Dr. said I need surgery for the positive node, and reirridation, and set up an appointment tomorrow at Mt Sinai Hospital to see the RO there, after hearing my local RO may not want to do any. Where surgery will be done on the left neck it was explained that there is a very real possibility of losing my left shoulder and left finger movement due to the location of the tumor in level V area. If they can find the nodule by FNA, with sonogram, and it comes back positive, I would need major surgery also on the right side…neck dissection. If not, he may just proceed with one surgery on the left nodule, laryngoscope with biopsy, and monitor the suspicious right nodule by PET scan in three months. On Tuesady I see my oncologist, but doubt she would want to do any type of chemo or alternative?

So, that’s it in a nutshell. Just two weeks ago I was doing fine, seeing doctors less, feeling improvements in energy with the increased hemoglobin, and then you get hit again with this news, more dr visits and pre-op testing. I guess I’ll just have to roll with the punches for now. So far, we are looking at the end of June for surgery, but next month is when I’m due to change over to medicare, and decided to go with original Medicare with the best supplemental and drug plan I can get, which Ii can always change in the future.

On Saturday, I still plan on attending a camp reunion for the Boy’s Athletic League in Harriman State Park in Upstate State NY, near Bear Mountain, that I went to every summer in my youth from 1972-1980. I plan on cooking some items..two marinated pork tenderloins..Cuban Mojo, and Jamaican Jerk, Potato salad, mango and black bean quinua salad, and a DRINK! Maybe a Michelada (beer with similar spices for a bloody Mary).

This picture is me in 1977 in the park on one of our overnight hiking trips. Harriman_State_Park_1977

3 people threw a punch at your cancer.
Scottie, Stacy sent you a prayer.

Well what can one say other than cancer sucks. I know you will continue to fight and will overcome this as well, just another setback.
On another note the camp reunion sounds like a good time, the items you are cooking sound delish wish I could be there.
Have fun, stay positive, take care. As always you continue to be in my prayers.

 Thanks Vince. Just another setback, but will keep up the fight. Hope things are well with yourself.

Darn it! So here you go again…I will say one thing, you are a amazing person and are needed right here on earth! You have such gifts and talents that are shared with so many. So, on that note WE are going for another fight..AND WILL WIN!
Hang in there Paul we are all with you!
I am glad you are going to camp. That sounds like so much fun and the food is to dye for.. Send us pictures!
Have a great weekend!
Lots of love, hugs and prayers

 Thanks Kathyo. I’m winning! Thanks for the support. I’ll take some pictures on Sat. I have a better camera than I did in 1977 lol.

Thanks for the update Paul. We are with you every step of the way! Love the photo! What a fine looking lad.

I’m praying for you!

Scottie

 Thanks Scottie. The photo was taken with a 110, which is extinct now lol. Hope your recovery is improving everyday!

Sorry to hear the news wasn’t as good as you were hoping for, but it sounds like you are in good hands with the docs and they are making decisions with caution. enjoy your camp reunion, i’m sure it will bring back many good memories and hopefully you get to catch up with some of your old mates. will ve thinking about you and sending good thoughts your way.

tj

OD@aT

 Thanks Jeff. I feel confident in my surgeon, oncologist, and thankfully the RO was truthfull, but will see what another one says. the reunion should be good. I can stay overnight, but will probably just go for the day.

I try not to read the other responses before I chime in, but sometimes it just sounds like I’m parroting everyone else. It sucks Paul, I’m just hoping the least of the invasive procedures is all you’ll have to do. I love that you’re going to cook for the boys, menu sounds wonderful. I’m keeping you in my daily thoughts and hoping your next go-round will be an easy one, all things considered.
Hugs
xoxo

Thanks Debbie. I look forward to Saturday, and woukd probsbly be good to grt out, which is rare other than to thr doctors lol. I was going to bring store bought items, but there would be riot after all the food pictures I post.

I hate that you still have to battle, but my prayers are with you on this leg of the journey. I hope you enjoy every minute of your reunion:)

 Thanks. I’ll be ok, and at least there are still options. I hope both of you are doing well.

Well Paul..praying for the easiest way out of this..and get it over fast so you can finally be healed. It’s so cool you are going back to camp and they are so lucky to have you cooking. Have a great time! You really are one amazing man.

 Thanks Sabina. Time will go by quickly with all the appointments lined up. I’m making the salads at home, which is easier for me, and bringing the pork to grill. I think I get get an assistant or two to help, anyway, there will be plenty of other food too.

if anyone ever had the information and the clarity to make some decisions,it is you,Paul! But just in case,i’ll pray to God that he brings healing and strength to you..and all of us in this blogosphere,dadburnit..also i’m jealous you were in upstate ny..i miss home..NC mountains where i’m from..hotrn hell Texas aint NC,thats for sure..

 Thanks Glenn, I’ll be praying too. I went to Boone NC, many years ago. I like it there too. The state park at Harrimn is nice, about 40 miles from NYC, but a world away. I heard they have bears there now too. I hope your recovery is going well.

Paul—
I’m so sorry you are having to go through all of this. Once with cancer is already too much—I wish it would just leave you alone. I know you’ll keep us posted on upcoming events, but for now, enjoy the reunion and wow them with your gourmet dishes! Sending you a hug and keeping you in my prayers.

Martha

 Thanks Martha, I guess the Cancet treatment sprint turned out to be a marathon lol. That’s ok, as long as I finish, and I intend too. I may even cook more food lol, if I have enough time, after my appointments.I’ll do the prep work starting tomorrow, assemble on Friday, and pack on Saturday. It should be easy since everything is pre-made, and should travel well cooled.

 I like that….cancer marathon rather than the sprint! One go around with cancer is enough! Cheering you on from north of the border. XO

It is so sad you have to go though all this stuff. At least you understand much about the treatments. That helps a lot.
The camp sounds like a fun and a needed getaway for you. Happy cooking! Sandyjo

 Thanks Sandyjo. My doctor was impressed I was mentioning different body areas by name. I told him google made me smarter lol. It’s a much needed getaway, and look forward to it. The weather is going to be great starting tomorrow through the weekend.

Bear Mountain! I use to go there with my family as a child..use to watch the ski jumpers and stay in the lodge there..awesome! Also…awesome news about watching after the surgery..absolutely get that..and …when my cecum was giving me a fit and I had a pet after colonoscopy and biopsy..they questioned me..I had a vision of you in the tube with gauze in your mouth..ugh! but..lets hope for least invasive and best outcome! I prayed for you at church..I believe in prayer and I believe he listens..Let’s hope this will work..love you Paul! Love you my friend! In my thoughts always..and prayers..Hugs! Eileen

 They restored the lodge I hear, and was recently opened again. I went there many times, but was usually off limits cause we would buy beer there at a young age lol. I appreciate the prayers, and glad to hear about your accupuncture.

 I had so many good memories at Bear Mountain..it was a lot of fun..can’t wait to go to PA this weekend..I haven’t been that far north in a long time and I miss it..I really hope that the best options for you are not painful and give the best…NED ..result! So sorry that you are going through this again..sounds like you are getting the info you need to make the best decisions..tricky..you are in my thoughts and prayers..your trip sounds awesome..take pictures! Happy you are going..made pork loin chops last night marinaded in beer..after a good pounding then egg wash with rye bread and pumpernickle bread crumbs..cooked up in the pan with some olive oil..german potatoe salad and sauerkraut..awesome..love the taste of the beer with the breadcrumbs..never did anything like that..Love you my friend and I hope today is a good day! Hugs! Eileen Have a wonderful weekend!

Paul I don’t even know what to say. I continue to pray for you and your Dr’s that they will find the appropriate treatment that heals you 100%. Keep us posted and best of luck buddy.

 Thanks James. Just your response says enough. Thanks for the support. I hope your recovery is doing well.

Paul,
NIce looking ‘pecs’ dude!. Keep your plans and go to the reunion. Your treatment has nothing to do with you living your life, unless you don’t feel up to it.
Be strong my friend!
Carpe Diem as my dear father used to say!

Jacques
Nemo Me Impune Lacessit

 Thanks Jacques. I was 16 in this picture. You are right, I gotta start living my life, not the other way around.

Paul I hate that you have to fight this battle again. It sounds like you have a good medical team and good insurance coverage, which is very helpful. I hope you enjoy your weekend in the mountains, it looks beautiful. The food you are making sounds fabulous. With all you have going on, I suppose you haven’t started that cooking blog, but do keep it in mind. I would love some of your recipes. Take good care and keep us posted. I will be praying for you. Hugs, Kathy

 Thanks Kathy. I haven’t looked at a blog since I have been busy or just tired with the anemia. My mind is still thinking About it lol. I feel comfortable with my medical team, and will move on to the next step. Thanks, and take care.

Yikes….won’t this ever quit for you???? Good luck and screw it while having a great weekend.

 Thanks . I think the doctors are surprised too. It should be a good weekend.

Sorry you have to go through this yet again. You are such a fighter. I hope you can continue to keep positive. Your strength is amazing. Sending you prayers and positive thoughts. Take care.

 Thanks Stacy. I always wanted to be a boxer lol. Thanks for the support and prayers.

Paul
All I can say is It sucks you have to go through this, but I know you are prepared and strong enough for this battle. We are all here praying for you.
Great photo I have one of those 110 cameras put away. Enjoy the reunion!
Stay Strong
Bill

 Thanks Bill. I appreciate the prayers. Those 110 were small from what I remember. I have a small digital camera now, which makes picture taking easy. The weather is supposed to.be great this weekend.

Stay strong paul and enjoy the camp reunion.

 Thanks Blair. I will.

The Third Time's a Charm?

It was a long, busy and tiring day for me, since I was at the hospital from 12pm until 7:30pm for a FNA (fine needle aspiration) and MRI. The Pathologist checked the nodule sample under the microscope, and said it’s showing to be cancer, squamous cell carcinoma, the same type I had before, and will do further testing. Not sure if it’s in the lymph or not? The procedure hurt more this time than it did the prior three times, probably from the radiation and surgery, as the doctor suggested. I spoke with my ENT, and he upped my appointment with him a week earlier to this Wednesday, and by that time all the tests will be back..full pathology, MRI and PET scan, and briefly spoke about surgery, and possible need for reiirdation, which he thinks should be considered. Things are moving quickly, and figure I would have surgery by the end of the month or sooner. Just last Wednesday I was doing fairly well, according to all my doctors, and blood tests. This nodule just seemed to pop-up overnight, and only discovered it last Thursday morning.

While I had some time between appointments, I put in requests for all my medical records, pathology and surgery reports, which is good to have anyway, but just in case I want to get a 2nd opinion elsewhere, and just so I can answer more specific questions by other doctors being I see six specialists that are not with the same institutions or one another. The biopsy slides are harder to obtain, and they would have to pay a fee to have to re-slice the sample or another doctor can borrow them, if needed, so I’ll wait until then.

Next was the MRI, which I didn’t care for last testing being I was in pain, but figured it would be easier and shorter without the contrast. Wrong! It took over an hour in the tunnel and probably everyone personally knows the loud thumping and machine gun sounds even with earplugs. Anyway, I made it out alive lol. Why is it when you are constrained you have an itch, a pain or have to keep swallowing when you are supposed to keep still.

So here I sit, thinking all about the latest developments, which is no surprise, but would not have minded if it was nicer news. In a way, it was a relief knowing immediately what the FNA showed, but still thinking about all the upcoming doctors visits to my ENT, Oncologist, RO and Primary doctor, along with all the pre-surgery tests, radiation tests and procedures, and that dreadful mask for treatment, which will be my 3rd one. All I can do is knock them out one by one, and hopefully as the saying goes, “The third time’s a charm.”

I wish it was better news, but like I said before, I want to know the good, the bad and the ugly. Like some, I fear more of the unknown than the truth, and feel somewhat relieved and now have a better idea what lies ahead.

I would like to wish all the ladies a happy Mothers Day for Sunday, and hope everyone else is well that is going through treatme or recovery. Even with all this, I still can say things do get better, so keep up the fight and faith!

6 people threw a punch at your cancer.
3 people sent you a prayer.
5 people sent you a hug.

I was wondering how your day went- I’m glad you’re back at home with at least a bit more clarity then this morning. I hope you can enjoy your weekend and find some peace. Are you cooking?

Huge hugs to you! And I so think that 3x a charm!

Thanks Kerry, I got home at 9pm, which is a long day for me. I’m not cooking much these days. When I have a task at hand, I don’t stop until I drop lol. This time it it’s medical stuff. At new years I did make a nice pread. Made like 20 dishes, and that was my task then. I hope you have a great Mothers Day with Hal.

I’m with you, Paul. I can deal with “stuff” better when I know what (or, kinda what) I am dealing with.
Big, virtual hug to you. :) I pray for everyone here, everyday, including you. And will keep doing so. Now, I have specifics for you.

 Thank you Carol for the prayers. I’m glad your tests came back for no thyroid cancer.happy Mothers Day tomorrow.

You are one tough warrior Paul, the average person probably would have given up by now, but not you, you continue to be an inspiration to us all. Will pray that this will come and go quickly for you and get you back to doing what you love most.
My thoughts and prayers with you!

 Thanks Vince, all of us here would do the same thing or more. I haven’t run away from much, and I guess why shoud I start now lol. Like everyone here knows its amazing of all the work that needs to be done for diagnosis, and treatment. It’s not that simple getting and coordinating a liitle poison, a zap or a chop!

Thanks Vince, and enjoy mothers Day with your family.

Paul,

Sorry you’re going through this yet again, but I’m impressed with the immediacy of your and your team’s response. IIRC, you didn’t know if the original pathological diagnosis of SCC pinpointed whether or not it was caused by HPV. Now might be the time to find out. I’m not sure what sample size they need, but here’s a link to basically how the test works. They don’t just look for the presence of the virus (which I’m guessing probably isn’t pertinent to your present spot, anyhow) – HPV leaves markers as a result of the specific genetic mutations it creates. These markers are very definitive.

http://emedicine.medscape.com/article/848034-overview#a0102

HTH

Thanks Flogger. I dont know why HPV was not tested from the biopsy in 2009, but there wasn’t time for much discussion since I had other life threatening issues soon after, and didn’t go back to that hospital right after chemo until a year later. I just picked up the pathology reports yesterday, and doesn’t say anything about HPV positive or negative in the tonsil. I guess they can always do a test, if the biopsied tissues are kept, which I think they are. Thanks for looking out.

Oh, Paul, I am so sorry! My husband always tells me not to think about the cancer coming back and yet every time I turn around someone I know is reporting in that it has come back. It breaks my heart to hear of it and scares me, too!

 Thanks Mersea. I don’t think the thought ever leaves our minds i guess ee need to work around it, and not let the thought paralyze us.

Hi Paul
So the battle begins. With your attitude and determination you will beat this again. My thoughts and prayers are with you. Post when you can.
Stay Strong
Bill

Thanks Bill. It is another battle, but at least it’s the same enemy lol. I guess it’s called recurrent local disease or metasises. Will keep everyone updated.

Happy Mothers day to you and your mother to Paul. I hate hearing that your starting this crap all over. i hope it doesn’t wear you down to much. I will be thinking about you and sending positive thoughts to you. I hope it all turns out good.

Thank you Blair. Hope you have a happy mothers day with Kathy!

Hi Paul—
While this is not the news you wanted to hear, or any of us for that matter, you are a fighter determined to beat this and you WILL! I’m sorry you having to fight the fight again, but we all have your back here. As you say, sometimes the not knowing is the hardest. You’ve identified the enemy and with the help of your docs will knock it out!

Hugs—
Martha

Thanks Martha. I’m going fo the knockout punch lol! Thanks for all the support, it helps go that extra round.

 Beautifuly said Martha! Now on with the fight Paul. I know you can win this yet again!

This one will do the trick, Paul, I’m confident of it! As you know it’s taken me many surgeries to get to rid of the cancer
(at least for the time) and I think that’s not at all uncommon for us cancer folk. It’s a war, not just a skirmish. And you are a warrior and will defeat this thing…with a little backup from your pals! Lots of hugs-Ann

 Thanks Ann. This is minor imparted to what I have been through,but I not underestimate the enemy. I wish I could wear camofouge lol. Thanks for the support! Happy Mothers day tomorrow.

ugh! At least you have an idea what you are dealing with. Having an idea can get you ready somewhat with an action plan..or at least get you ready for battle. So sorry you are having to go through this again. Let’s hope they have something to offer that won’t be destructive or injurious to you. That I worry about. Please keep us informed. I am here for you..sending prayers that this will be the last timel. Sending hugs! Eileen

 Thanks Eileen. I go for a PET/CT scan on Monday. That should be it for the ENT to let me know he next course of action, and extent of it. Have a happy Mothers Day!

 You will be in my thoughts. It really bothers me that you are going through this again. I keep thinking about your dream blog and how difficult your last experience was and I am praying that this treatment is not as difficult or as traumatic for you. Just not fair. I was thinking yesterday when I was at work..looking at all of the patients around me and wondering why some really good people like you have to battle so hard and have these bad things happen to them..just stinks..You are in my thoughts and prayers. Thanks for the mother’s day wishes..I hope you have a good day today and let us know about your pet..I hope there is something out there that can knock this thing out and not do much harm. Love you my friend! Hugs! Eileen

I am very very disappointed to hear you have to start fighting this battle for the third time. You are very wise to start compiling all you records for a second opinion. Please know there are so many people “out there” that are pulling for you and you are most definitely not alone. You are such a good guy and this seems so unfair, it makes me angry. Well, like you said, things can get better, so fight on Paul and keep the faith. Hugs and prayers. Kathy

 Thanks Kathy. I have most of my records, but sometimes slacked off or wasnt in he mood or condition to obtain some. Its easier at the time to do than go back three years. I appreciate very one’s support and response. It helps.

Paul,
I’m never at a lost for words, but after all you’ve
been through-how do you say I’m so sorry you have to go through this again?
There were times when I felt pretty beaten up but I would hear you so upbeat,I knew there was hope.
We will say it now from the start “YOU WILL KICK CANCERS ASS”. I’m praying that you will come through
this smelling like a rose.
May God bless you real good.
Pen

 Thanks Pen. I will be ok, I hope. I will find out more on Wed. In the meantime, looking around on the net about radiation. I had IMRT, but there is also IGRT, TOMO, and other variants like cyber knife.

Paul,
What is imrt-igrt-tomo and cyber knife?
Pen

 They are different radiation machines. iMRT is Intensity-modulated radiation treatment. You probably had the same like most of us did. They are just different, like different model cars, but they are all external beam radiation machines, and a form of IMRT. Pros and cons for each, and for different cancers. IMRT is the gold standard and where most study was done with.

I’m so sorry to hear the news. I don’t really know what to say beyond what already has been said in the above comments. It is always so sai to hear cancer is back.
Hugs and prayers, Sandyjo

 Thanks Sandyjo. Your support is plenty.

I hate cancer. I hate that you have to go through this again. You seem like such a great guy. But, as we all have learned, cancer does not discriminate. I will pray that things go smoother this time around. Sending hugs your way, Kellye

 Thanks Kellye. This will soon pass. Just Anothet bump in the road. I doubt they would do chemo, so that is good, somewhat.

Well Paul I was so hoping this would not be as it is. My heart goes out to you and I will continue to pray for you. Have to be strong and know all of us here care and are with you. Big Hugs Sabina

 Thanks Sabina. I appreciate the support, and your comments.

Paul this is not what I wanted to hear. If cursing helped I sure would be doing that! But I do know that prayers, positive thoughts, a good attitude, arming yourself with knowledge, a great medical staff and a friends who will also have your back does make a difference. Well you have all of that! We are all on the same team! You’ve got this one!
Much love and caring!

Thanks Kathyo. All the support does help!

Dear PAul,
All I can think of is ARE YOU KIDDING ME? SOB..I just cannot believe this..I really think you deserve a break here buddy! Know we are all thinking of you and as for me your name is in my prayers…Rest and breathe: Lots of love and prayers and good wishes..Lori in AZ

Thanks Lori. I’ve been surprising the doctors for a while now lol. I appreciatre the support and prayers. Have a happy mothers day.

Well I dont know about the third time being a charm but I know death comes in threes so In my sick little mind Im thinking youll kick cancers ass this time and its finally done dead finished Muerte ! For good So I will hold that thought and pray for a positive outcome from the third outcome. Noone should have to endure this shit 3 times bud you are stronger than anyone I have ever known to face this so strong God bless you Paul fight the good fight AGAIN at least you know whats ahead of you

Thanks Mike.

I hate that you are going thru this again Paul – but you are on top of things, and I can certainly see you on top of cancer, beating it out of existance! I look forward to your NED blog, and more food pictures. Prayers going up for you right now.

 Thanks. It’s hurry up and wait process. Had PET scan today. Hope to get the results Wednesday when I visit the ENT. Spoke with the RO on the phone. Radiation may not be a possibility?

Take heart my friend. You have an army of supporters here at BFAC sending positive thoughts and prayers your way every day.

Scottie

 Thanks Scottie. I sure do have support here :) I hope you are doing well.

Dear Paul, I was doing the “solidarity MRI” with you last Fri. (Still awaiting results.)
...At least they talked me through every sequence, like I asked. ...Sounds like they kept you too long in the tube.
I hope you’re rewarding yourself for all this weary testing and consultations. Each and every step deserves the Excellence in Being Paul Award.

And that was right handy that you put up that big inviting welcome sign for the 3rd Time’s a Charm crowd. We’re all hanging out here for sure; amazed at how you’re always battle-ready.
None of this should be happening, dear Paul. It’s a comfort to know how confident you are that you are building one f’kng arsenal of information and knowledge.
Hugs and more,
here for you,
always.

I hope your MRI comes out well. My doctor called me today to confirm the pathology report and MRI. Can never get used to these tests, but have to do them. I felt like having a drink afterwards lol, but was so tired that we, my brother and I, passed by a burger place for take out. I guess the carb over load turned to alcohol in my body lol. Tomorrow, I go to the ENT for more details. Have a good day, and was great hearing from you.







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